Is leadership over-hyped?

Is the concept of leadership over-hyped? Over my past 4 years in a ministry training environment, that's a question I've asked myself and a skepticism I've put to many different of my thinking friends. My question is asked sincerely but also out of a sense of frustration. On the one hand, I know I'm called to follow God in such a way that I will also be leading others. Yet on the other hand, I have trouble identifying with a lot of what spoken of, exemplified, and taught in the name of "leadership."  The corporate world gives us the CEO example, the mega church gives us a super-pastor model, the para-church gives us the disciplined, respected, popular leader. I don't identify with any of them.  Honestly, I wonder how much Jesus or the disciples would have identified with these models.

Some of my friends are specifically and passionately pursing a "leadership" calling on their life and in some cases have done extensive reading on understanding how to be a leader. In my church, we often talk about "leadership gifts". We, the American church, have many different "leadership" conferences, summits, and seminars that are designed to take on "leadership" issues. There are a plethora of both sacred and secular books on how to be an effective leader. In spite of all this the church as a whole seems to have a dearth of good leaders. Many church leaders and well-known Christians say things like "the church needs more leaders!" or "there is a lack of leadership in the church!" I don't necessarily disagree. But I do wonder. Sometimes I wonder things like, "Are church spokespeople missing a bigger and simpler mandate than leadership? Are we elevating a secondary topic to a first place position? Are we over-complicating this?"

Jesus instructed his followers to do many things. Perhaps highest on the list were the verbs believe, love, abide, serve, and feed (i.e. Jn 3, 13, 15, 21:15-19). I propose that these verbs point to a main mandate to become spiritually mature in Jesus. As people of God, we are called to receive His grace and live it out. We are continually called to new and deepening levels of this receiving and living. I further propose that spiritual leadership comes almost naturally as an out flow of this kind of maturity in Christ.

I wonder sometimes if our approach to training leaders is akin to teaching a caterpillar to fly. Caterpillars as caterpillars are not equipped to fly. But, fly they will once their maker transforms them. Growing up and waiting are the key things for the caterpillar to work on, not flutter techniques. Perhaps those who assist the caterpillar should just be satisfied that the caterpillar will one day burst into flight. This is a simplification of course. I do in fact believe that there are learned leadership skills and techniques that are helpful. Yet it seems to me that 95% of spiritual leadership is simply spiritual maturity.  If believers and church leaders would focus primarily on growing deep in Christ, good leadership will emerge with vitality.

Show me someone who's body, mind, emotions, spirit, and relationships have been transformed by the Holy Spirit, and I will show you someone who is a good leader.  I would further wager that the biggest hindrance in my own leadership is not that I don't know what to do or how to do it. Rather, it stems a lack of maturity in several areas where God continues His work.  I need more of His love flowing through me, a deeper understanding of his abiding presence and father-love, a transforming desire from Him to serve, an excitement of being vulnerable in community, and a compassion to feed and shepherd!

Real leadership is excellent and we need it in our churches, yet I can't help but think that maturity in Christ is the platinum commodity.  What do you think?

The Clue Hunt

Friday, April 30, ~ 6:00 pm. Alissa was expecting her boyfriend to arrive from out of state. Instead, a dozen Roses, a sealed envelope (clue #1), and a keyed box (clue #3) are delivered by Kim to Alissa’s house (Bama & Papa’s). The clue is to call Bre and get her help in opening the box.

Clue #1:

A wildflower or a rose, which one do you propose?

Like you, a wildflower is pretty yet much untamed,
Each bouquet—full of color, unique, far from same.

A rose, so formal, implies distinction.
Like you it’s special, beautiful, exquisite, and expensive.

A wildflower, though, seems most natural
It fits your attitude, your cadence, and your fashion.

Still others say that roses, “they are more impressive.”
Those thorny plants insinuate more—connection?

A boyfriend’s dilemma to be sure!
But at least when in love… maybe I should ….
Choose the rose?


Dear wildflower,

You are more special than all the wildflowers OR roses the world over. These are just a reminder of that simple fact. I’m actually not going to be in town tonight . But, I will see you tomorrow. There’s a few things you need to do tonight to get ready for tomorrow, though. The necessary instructions are in the locked container.

The person who will help you open that box is someone whom you know.
You say she’s good at organizing things at home and even in your abode.
This isn’t difficult, in fact I think I’ve already given it all away.
Just pick up the phone and call a friend whose last name begins with K.

Friday, April 30, ~ 6:10 pm. Bre answers phone and (eventually) discloses that she has the next clue and will bring it over to Alissa’s house.

Friday, April 30, ~ 6:30 pm. Bre arrives at Alissa’s house with an envelope (clue #2). It contains the following note with a key enclosed that fits the lock on the box already delivered (clue #3).

Clue #2:

Dearest friend,

Here is a key. I think of 3 things when I look at this key:

1) God has given you a key. You seem to have a key to unlock certain things in me that no one else can. You bring out aspects of fun, wildness, faith, and passion for life that no one else to this point has seemed able to release. You increase my desire to walk in holy obedience to God’s Spirit, and your example challenges me to be more the kind of man I want to be.

2) Second, I am giving you a key. I have been and am still choosing to yield to you another key—the key to my heart. You get this key because I trust you. I am willing to entrust you with access the deepest places of vulnerability, more than anyone else has. To you I open the craziest musings, the ugliest struggles, and the most sacred blessings. You, dear friend, are given access to walk and browse in all these places.

3) Lastly, you have been giving me a key. The greatest blessing I have experienced in our relationship is you, opening yourself to me. You have allowed me to begin to unlock your heart in a way that fills me with joy. You have chosen vulnerability over fear or protectiveness. You have chosen—in spite of my own struggles at times to walk in grace—to trust me with an unmasked view of who you are and who you desire to become.

Keys, then, are important. This one, though, will just open the next clue. Maybe Bre can help you figure out and complete the next step. Have fun with it.

I love you.
Matt

KEY ENCLOSED IN THIS ENVELOPE.

Friday, April 30, 6:40 pm. Alissa and Bre open the box in question (clue #3). It has chocolates, etc., and an envelope with the poem below:

Clue #3:

Sweetheart,

Don’t be mad, don’t be (too) sad.
You’ll get to see me soon, so it’s not all that bad.

Adventure awaits you on the morrow
With me, your friend, your bow, your… lover (?)

I’ll keep you guessing about the precise destination
But I’ll give you some hints about your preparations

The Adirondacks would be great, but buggy I’m afraid
Let’s go somewhere more civilized on this the first of May.

A jungle would be nice, or a Siberian plain, (haha)
But these are a bit far-fetched for a weekend’s simple aim

So, pack a bag for tomorrow, adventure doth await.
Think urban fun—not Africa—streetlamps when it gets late.

Enough for a few days, a couple nights.
Nothing complicated. Please, keep it light!

Don’t worry about a place to sleep. I’ve got that figured out.
Someplace we’ll both find interesting, no doubt!

Bulky baggage is more difficult to carry. If you think you’ve got the knack,
Maybe you could fit it all inside a medium backpack?
(but, don’t worry if you can’t)

Remember, sometimes streets seem forever to go on,
Bring footwear a mite less beautiful, but still practical and fun.

So, I think this concludes all the hints I have for you.
Of the coming day, you’ve been given a small preview.

Tomorrow will be an early date, I think it best we don’t be late!
Be ready for a knock on your door at quarter to eight!

Sleep well, best friend, dream deep.
Pack your stuff and seek that elusive sleep.

Saturday, May 1, 7:45 am. Becca arrives at Alissa’s house. Becca gives her an envelope (clue #4). Envelope apologizes that her handsome boyfriend can’t be there, but one of favorite mutual friends is! Yay! The envelope gives her instructions to go order a latte from the counter of her favorite Starbucks. Clue below:

Clue #4:

What? Who’s this?
It’s not Matt, it’s Becca!
A friend loyal, honest and supportive
Our inevitable pairing—perhaps she knew?

Good at hugging she might be,
But now, perhaps, hers are insufficient
To fill a hole of romantic affection
That feels (right now)…deficient!

So put your bag in Becca’s car
She’ll help you find your truer love.
Don’t forget your license, wallet, purse, or phone
You might need these yet for future roads.

Chaffer Becca, set your course
To the place of Lissa’s last work.
Order a Latte Tall (decafe will do!)
You’ll receive an envelope with another clue!

The coffee, its brewing
The next clue, its looming!
We’ve time enough to skip the Via,
But don’t get stuck barista mingling!

Saturday, May 1, 8:30 am. Alissa arrives at Starbucks. Hannah, Vanessa, Kate, or other barista at Starbucks gives her an envelope when she places her order for a Latte (clue #5).

Clue #5:

Barista Alissa,

I can think of three things that make my heart beat faster:
a) A triple shot mint mocha venti frap consumed in under 15 minutes.
b) A hug from you or gazing deeply into your brown eyes
c) The ends of earth, and God’s sovereign plan for those people groups.

> You can get a) now if you desire (but it wouldn’t be advisable).
> I’d like b) now, but I’m not sitting across from you next to the bonsai tree and I miss you.
> The physical gateway to item c), however, is pertinent. It is your next stop where you will receive your final clue.

So go—
go to that place where the earth meets skies,
where long trips are born, where people fly!
park the car and go inside,
pick an escalator and sit nearby.
your next emissary is not shy.
he will surely find you and say ‘hi’.

Saturday, May 1, 9:20 am. Alissa arrives at airport. Jeff is waiting for her, keeping an eye out for her. A little while after she sits down near the escalator he comes by and says hi. No idea how he will play this one off, but eventually he gives her an envelope (clue #6) with instructions on how to get her ticket.

Clue #6

My Dear Alissa,

Congratulations on making it to clue #6 in one piece. I expect that the future may contain many adventures, and much travel. Your final instructions are below:

1. Go to US Airways check-in computer
2. Retrieve a boarding pass for yourself using the Record Locator code BPJFQD. It is a direct flight to your destination.
3. Check your bag if you need to (if it is too big or if it has aerosol/liquids in it). (Money is for checking bag). Otherwise you can carry it on.
4. Wait for your flight.

I’m expecting you.

Love, Matt

US Airways record locator: BPJFQD
Orbitz record locator: AP800101BPJFQD8M
Airline ticket number(s): 03777552010912

Saturday, May 1, 11:21 am. Plane leaves.

[Open on the plane envelope]

Dear Alissa,

I am glad that you are now underway to join me in DC for a weekend getaway. I hope the small clue hunt over the last 17 hours has been fun and not too exhausting/stressing. Of course, you said at one point that you’d follow me anywhere, so perhaps I am just testing and teasing that theory a little bit. But I also wanted to have some time with just you, so this seemed like a good plan. An adventure for both of us, together. I appreciate your readiness to try new things and to be flexible and spontaneous.

Looking forward to seeing you soon.

Love, Matt

Saturday, May 1, 12:48 pm. Plane arrives in DC Reagan National. Matt is waiting at the gate as Alissa gets off the plane.

Saturday, May 1, afternoon.
>Use Metro to travel to the hostel 5 blocks E of the Capitol and drop our bags.
> Do some walking around the mall, visit some of the Smithsonians (Botanical garden, Art Museum), get lunch. (Also, try the paddle boats on the tidal pool).

At sunset, on the banks of the Potomac, I proposed, and she said YES!



(To view more photos of the weekend, click here.)

Special thanks to:
Kim (mutual friend from Campus Ambassador days at SUNY)
Breanna (Alissa’s cousin and friend),
Rebecca (mutual friend from SUNY and Cornerstone),
Hannah, Vanessa, Kate & Starbucks friends, (Alissa’s community from her last job)
Jeff (mutual friend from Cornerstone)

Thanks for your help in pulling this off. You guys are awesome.

Alissa Jodelle Detweiler, I LOVE YOU!!

Holy Spirit: fill, heal, change

Lord Jesus Christ, I want to put You first.
each day, in everything, in every way.
to choose your path first at every junction,
for this--a way of life, I yearn and pray.

a songwriter once wrote “prone to wander”
and Lord, I do feel this so strong.
I do not plan to run from You; but so often,
my heart just grows cold and I find myself alone

why does my heart become so underwhelmed
when everything around shouts and sings of your great love?
why do I become distracted in the course set for me?
certainly this is the epitome of shallowness--what stupidity!

You are the pearl of great price
your worth is certain above all sacrifice
only with every possession held in full surrender,
can I embrace this life of complete abandon.

help me, Holy One who lives within
change my heart, free me from all sin.
fill me up with your desire and give me that ability to follow
guide me in the truth by your own power

not in the likes of me does power such as this abide
only in your gift of love can it possibly materialize
I am empty, broken, willing
Holy Spirit, be my filler, healer, and desire.

Birthday reflections

Birthdays are, among other things, opportunities to reflect on where you have been and where you are going. For those of us who follow Jesus, it is an opportunity to give thanks to God for what He has brought us through and the blessings He has given us.

As I enter a new year of life, I give thanks afresh to God for his provision of two amazing parents—parents who have sacrificially poured their own lives out for their children. For a father who has modeled a life of striving toward God, depending on God, giving thanks in all things, and a willingness to continue to grow and change regardless of his stage in life. For a mother who has demonstrated persistence in her relationship with God, unending love and concern for her family, hospitality to friends and strangers; a woman who’s inner beauty is becoming deeper and clearer with each new year.

I give thanks to God for three sisters—not just sisters, but the best and closest of friends. Sisters who have challenged me through their life choices and willingness to make radical decisions to follow Jesus; sisters who have encouraged me with words of affirmation, who have affirmed God’s work in me, and have both accepted and shared wisdom at apropos times.

Praise God, too, for a wonderful family in Christ. Even this year, God has expanded this family to include so many new kindred spirits. Thanks to God for new brothers, fathers, uncles; new sisters and aunts. Thanks to him for friends that are brothers indeed; for helping me learn new things about how to live and serve others in a community of grace.

Most of all, I give thanks for what Jesus did that enables me to truly know my heavenly Father and experience His comfort, life, joy, peace, and purpose. Thank you Jesus for continuing to shine Your grace upon me; thank you for giving me what I don’t deserve: Life. Not just air to breathe, but the Holy Spirit—breath from heaven that fills me to overflowing and brings me glimpses of a Reality that is far more glorious than anything I could imagine.

Many other co-workers, teachers, and dear international friends could be mentioned. I look at my facebook profile and see an astounding 388 people—all people that I know in some way or another. Relationships—with God and with others—these are the greatest of God’s blessings. Thank you for the birthday wishes; thanks for all of you who have helped me realize today how blessed I really am. I am a rich man.

Intimacy: the Motivation for Purity

“Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God.”

--Jesus, Matthew 5:8

“Mauriac dismissed most of the arguments in favor of sexual purity that he had been taught in his Catholic upbringing. ‘Marriage will cure lust’: it did not for Mauriac, as it has not for so many others, because lust involves the attraction of unknown creatures and the taste for adventure and chance meetings. ‘With self-discipline you can master lust’: Mauriac found that sexual desire is like a tidal wave powerful enough to bear away all the best intentions. ‘True fulfillment can only be found in monogamy’: this may be true, but it certainly does not seem true to someone who finds no slackening of sexual urges even in monogamy. Thus he weighed the traditional arguments for purity and found them wanting.

“Mauriac concluded that self-discipline, repression, and rational argument are inadequate weapons to use in fighting the impulse toward impurity. In the end, he could find only one reason to be pure, and that is what Jesus presented in the Beatitudes: ‘Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.’ In Mauriac’s words, ‘Impurity separates us from God. The spiritual life obeys laws as verifiable as those of the physical world….Purity is the condition for a higher love—for a possession superior to all possessions: that of God. Yes this is what is at state, and nothing less.’

“Reading Francois Mauriac’s words did not end my struggle with lust. But I must say that beyond all doubt that I have found his analysis to be true. The love God holds out to us requires that our faculties be cleansed and purified before we can receive a higher love, one attainable in no other way. That is the motive to stay pure. By harboring lust, I limit my own intimacy with God.

“The pure in heart are truly blessed, for they will see God. It is as simple and as difficult, as that.”

--Phillip Yancey in The Jesus I Never Knew (p. 119), reflecting on the writings of French Catholic Francois Mauriac

I read and reviewed Yancey’s book in one of my classes this semester. Personally, this one quote was worth the whole read—it reverberated with me. There is no real intimacy with God without purity. God had been challenging me all semester to view purity not so much as an abstention from certain behaviors, but rather a passionate pursuit of just One thing. God. I say God has been challenging me in this—I would really like to say I have learned this, but really, I am struggling so much to apply it.

God. Possessing God. Finding intimacy with Him. Accepting all His love and being able to love Him back. This is the goal. Nothing less and nothing more. Jesus spoke of this kind intimacy in His “High Priestly Prayer” in John 17. He desired that His followers “may all be one; even as You, Father, are in Me and I in You, that they also may be in Us, so that the world may believe that You sent Me” (John 17:21). Jesus sees this intimacy with Him as the path to real joy (John 17:13).

But how do we get to knowing God like this? Not just knowing intellectually about Him, but seeing Him for who He is? How do we move beyond intellectual conjuncture and into the realm of seeing—the experiential realm of realizing the reality of God Himself? Its precondition is purity. “Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God.” How does one ”get” pure? We know we can’t do it ourselves. Notice it is purity in heart. It is not people who simply do pure things or believe in pure things, nor people who just think purely. Purity is a disposition of the heart.

Some people seem to think (or at least act like) that the goal of Christian living is discipline. But discipline is a petty aim. What does it get you? If discipline is an end in itself, it either makes you feel smugly self-righteous, or sorely disappointed and lifeless because it you just missed out on something that seems really cool and pleasurable. Why discipline ourselves? Should we even bother to pursue discipline? Discipline has this tendency to either feed my pride or make me feel like a failure! A couple times I have wondered that in order to purse a grace-filled life, maybe I should ditch any pursuit of discipline altogether.

But perhaps the key to practicing discipline is to realize that discipline is not the end in itself. It is one aspect (among others) of growing toward purity of heart which in turn produces intimacy with God. Discipline is one way we cooperate with God in making us pure. But if we forget the goal of discipline (real intimacy with Him) we are elevating a secondary pursuit to an abysmal first.

Purity, likewise, is not to be pursued as merely an end in itself. It is not merely a form of self-discipline to make me a better person—that is far too weak a goal to accomplish something so insurmountable. Purity (more specifically for me: Moral Purity) has that end of intimacy with Christ. I want to Possess Him and live in the richness of His love. That is the motivation that propels me to repent (turn away from) inferior affections and to nurture passion for Him. I crave Intimacy and I know that there is only one Person who can fully satisfy that craving. I have tasted of His intimate love and caring nature, but do not live in it moment by moment.

Change our hearts, oh Lord, to truly desire You above all else.

On standards we can't keep

"I have disappointed and failed to live up to the standard I expected of myself," the first-term governor told a packed press conference at his Manhattan office. "I must now dedicate some time to regain the trust of my family," he added, as his wife of two decades, Silda, stood by his side.

–Words of Eliot Spitzer, Governor of New York State, alluding to allegations of illegal involvement with a prostitution ring. http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/americas/7288540.stm

How many times do we disappoint and fail to live up to the standards we expect for ourselves? That is perhaps the key thing that defines fallen man. Fallen man is not defined by the fact that he no longer knows right from wrong. His problem is that he knows right from wrong, but is hopelessly unable to walk in it. Everyone—atheist, Christian, or heathen alike—all set some sort of standard for themselves concerning the way they think they ought to live! The ironic thing is that people break the very standards they themselves create! I am not speaking here of God’s laws and perfect holiness which we obviously far fall short of, but something more simple—those artificial standards of righteousness we set up for ourselves.

From the mom who says she should never yell at her kids (and then does anyways) to the husband who says that he should always be patient with his wife (and then loses it), to the kid who has always said cheating was wrong (and then looks at his friend’s paper), to the governor who spouts the need for integrity….need I go on? I mean, really, if you yourself can’t think of a single circumstance of duplicity in your own life, then perhaps your thinker is out of order. We all do it on different levels in various circumstances.

What is the natural response when we find ourselves in a position where we have violated what we understand to be right? Well usually, the place I want to start is blame—I blame my circumstances, or the people who have influenced me, the helps that had been denied me, or the pressures that surround me! Sometimes (and this one can even look responsible), I blame my own weakness. That way at least it looks like I am facing up to my errors! In reality, though, I am simply hiding behind my humanity as an excuse for my shortcomings.

Another natural response is simply a sudden shift in standards. “Oh, well, I thought that was wrong before, but now because I have done it, and found so much pleasure in it—well…it can’t be wrong because it felt so right! Wow, I was so inhibited!” We have just justified something we knew was wrong. Maybe we’ll feel guilty about it for a while, but eventually it will begin to feel like normal behavior.

May I submit that this human behavior pattern of violating what we know to be right is a universal indication that mankind is broken? We are fallen people. We know what we ought to do and yet don’t do it! It is not complicated! It is just that we are broken! Men and women will face judgment primarily on the basis of this reality—their constant falling short of the standard they know to be right. In fact, we in essence judge ourselves. We know what is right, yet screw it up.

You get the picture here? The good news is this: God sent a Savior, Jesus. He fixes things. In fact, He fixes broken people. All who trust in Him, acknowledging that they have failed and need fixing get a special gift: they are no longer judged the way they deserve to be judged, and they receive new power that grows them toward actually living the way they ought to live.

Learn from our poor governor—learn from me—it’s impossible for you to live up to the standard you expect from yourself. If you think you are actually doing it, you probably are just blind to the duplicity of pride that permeates your existence.

Be honest about your shortcomings and look to the Savior for his forgiveness and help. It’s never too late and never to early to repent. It’s the sweetest gift you’ll ever receive, and it’s a gift you will have to keep tapping over and over again.

The gift of singleness...

Happy Valentine’s Day! Or, as one friend told me today, “Happy Singles Awareness Day, or S.A.D.” I don’t really like that last one, though, because being single is not such a sad thing. You are lonely at times, yes, but there are special benefits and opportunities in singleness that you really don’t have when you are married (or dating or engaged, etc.).

It’s funny that God seems to have been speaking to me about singleness the past week or two. Part of it is a carryover from how God met me at a recent conference in Asia, and part of it something fresh. Most of it, however, is just starting to really understand what Paul was saying in 1 Corinthians 7.

"One who is unmarried is concerned about the things of the Lord, how he may please the Lord; but one who is married is concerned about the things of the world, how he may please his wife, and his interests are divided. The woman who is unmarried, and the virgin, is concerned about the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and spirit; but one who is married is concerned about the things of the world, how she may please her husband. This I say for your own benefit; not to put a restraint upon you, but to promote what is appropriate and to secure undistracted devotion to the Lord."

(1 Cor. 7:32-35 NAS95, emphasis added)

People have often talked about the “gift of singleness.” Sometimes when people say this, they are referring to the idea of a God-given temperament or “gift” that allows someone to live a fulfilling, celibate life. That is one definition, but I am thinking about a broader definition: that state of romantic unattachment which a follower of Christ finds him or herself in for an indefinite period of time (for whatever reason). The person in our second definition may have no specific “call” to be single in the short or long term—it’s just that they haven’t found their life partner yet, or circumstances have forced them to choose otherwise. What I refer to as the “gift of singleness” definitely falls in the second category.

Being single is a gift. No really, it is! But up to this point in my life, I don’t think I’ve really opened up the gift and started to get excited about it. Imagine a child getting a present on their birthday, looking at it for months without opening it, and then wondering why their Daddy gave them such a bum birthday present! I have been pouty with God on and off because I would get lonely, have unfulfilled desires, want to have some romantic fun, or just because I felt like I was missing out on something special that other friends have. All these attitudes reveal that I missed the essence of the gift, and am only looking at the fading wrapping paper!

The real gift of singleness is about devotion to God. You can’t really get excited about being single unless you’re excited about God—the reason I‘m excited about it right now is because I’m excited about God! Paul says it is for our benefit, to secure undistracted devotion to the Lord. The gift is that you are at a time in life where God is totally able to mold you and shape you without distraction. You have fewer demands on your time and life; fewer responsibilities with caring for other people. More than any other time in life, you can maximize your time alone with your God and seek intimacy with Him. In greater measure than ever before, you are able to focus your energy on becoming holy in both body and spirit. You can, more than a married person can rightly do, discipline your lifestyle to focus on pleasing the Lord exclusively.

Do you see the caveat to the gift here? You’re not going to enjoy singleness unless you learn to enjoy God. Period. Singleness (or marriage actually, for that matter) can easily be viewed as a curse if it is not in the context of a life of enjoyment of God. There are struggles in any life circumstance: single, married, living with parents, etc., but they all boil back to how you are relating to God.

Let me state it one last way: God is the gift of singleness. Take off the wrapping paper. Open the gift. My guess is that intimacy and a life toward “undistracted devotion” is inside. Use the gift!